If we are all honest, there are times in our lives where we don’t understand what God is doing and all we can do is ask why? Why This? Why Now? Why Me? Aren’t I trying to be godly and aren’t I following your will and direction in my life, then why is this so hard?
“Oh, the depths of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgments and how inscrutable are his ways!” Romans 11:33
God has brought us across the world to serve Him as missionaries in Papua New Guinea. We have left our home, family, and friends behind to do what we know is His will for us. The transition was difficult but filled with God’s grace. Finally, we made it through language learning and were excited to begin the “Dorm Ministry”. We did not expect to spend our first term helping Ellaina struggle through schoolwork, making visits to the medical clinic, staying up in the night with Katelyn in pain (suspected appendicitis), Ben having breathing problems, two with conjunctivitis, a staff infection on Ellaina’s leg, removing a bead stuck in Chloe’s nose, and having Katie not physically able to help because of back problems.
In the movie Evan Almighty God says, “Remember that whatever I do, it is because I love you.” After a series of trials and difficulties Evan replies, “Can you love me a little less?”. We will never fully understand the wisdom and purposes of God. We don’t have the knowledge or foresight to even question His ways, but we may think sometimes: “God, love me a little less!”. Wouldn’t that be easier than trials?
Thankfully, God is not able to love us any less than His best even though it hurts sometimes. What would I be like today without His work in my life or without His loving hand allowing difficulties and at the same time carrying me through them when I am unable to stand on my own? Would I really know God without the difficulties, without having to place my Trust & Faith in Him when nothing makes sense at all?

Josh & Ellaina
“Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see” Heb. 11:1
God, help us all to walk by faith! Heb. 11:1
Please Pray with Me for my brother James, his wife Becky, and their 11 year old son Joshua. After a few intense days in the hospital they have just learned that He has Leukemia!
*God, please give the doctors wisdom!
*God, strengthen and guide James and Becky with the many difficult decisions.
*God comfort them when they see their son in pain and help them Trust You through the Trials!